I'm openly nerdy...and I happen to be black (GC), so when I can't sleep, I post things on my guild forums. So last night, as usual, I was wide awake at 2 am, but one of my guildies was up running quests and I was talking to him and some other guildies on vent. So, at some point, he told me that he wasn't going to sleep until I did, because the last night I had insomnia, he went to bed and I wound up staying up all night. And he sounded so tired that I went to bed so he wouldn't stay up. And then I'd promised I would go to bed so even when I couldn't sleep, I lay there and eventually I fell asleep. Normally, I would've gotten back up and back on the computer. So, thanks much. You know who you are.

I'm still tired, but I have an idea that might help. I am going to try Bikram Yoga in DC, every morning for two months. The 2nd month will be the first month of school also, but this not having energy is sooooo unbelievably old. I can't keep going like this.

I go from being exhausted and doing things because I have to to being not exhausted, but not feeling up to doing anything at all. It's insane.

I have a thing for Morgan Spurlock, seriously. He goes and does this insane stuff and he seems to genuinely empathize with the people he goes to live and work and be with. I want to do one of his experiments. I need to think of something to do in the vein of his show. I'll do my college student on a cheap healthy budget experiment. I might could (Bmore expression :D ) start today, since it seems like I can chew after all.

Ooh, I found a spinning class. :D http://atangledskein.com/

It's close to me and it looks pretty cool. :)

So I'm watching 30 days, which is the show that the guy from Super Size Me (Morgan Spurlock) has and he and his now-fiance Alex are working minimum wage jobs in Cleveland and the show made me start thinking about my life and the fact that I've never had anybody, including me, consider what I'm going to do with it.

That's one disadvantage of not having grown up in any kind of regimented school system. It's a little depressing. It is, especially since except once in a while, I don't get to say anything about it and I can't do anything about it and when I could, I was a clueless 14 year old in a grown body and as usual, I didn't even know what I had. Soo frustrating.

Anyway, they were shopping and I was like "okay, that's something I could do." So, I'm going to blog about cheap food weeks. My goal is to spend $20 on food this week. (The part after the tooth heals up and I can, Insha'Allah, chew again.) Oh, and I really hope he gets my bite right, because this stupid filling crap thing is making my freaking jaw hurt. And I'm out of pills.

I like Morgan and Alex because he's wild, okay, dude is wild and she's doing his insane, wild project with him and they're nice to each other. You know? It'd be nice to find somebody worth being nice to who thought I was worth being nice to. They have no money at this point and they're doing this voluntarily, and she's making the project easier for him to do and he's nice to her and she's nice to him. They have no money and yet he spends what little they have on taking her to the hospital and I really like them. Okay. \End gush.

Back to leveling.

I'm having a hard time. I overslept again. I haven't made a single Saturday morning skate this summer, not a single one. My diet is limited to popsicles, yogurt, and mashed sweet potatoes because I'm temporarily unable to chew. My jaw hurts. My hair is jacked up and I don't have any tools to fix it, except at home. And I'm always so tired that I don't want to do anything.

I need to go see a doctor about the fact that I can't fall asleep (I tried last night. I even didn't finish my own raid.), but I can't, because I have no health insurance and will be spending close to 3 grand on my teeth this summer and then 1 a month on freaking tuition in the Fall.

Protip: If you're going to eat emotionally and you can control how, go with chocolate rather than gummy, especially if you work out anyway and obesity isn't so much of an issue.

Better yet, recognize that you're lonely and depressed and get un -so. Yeah. Not. I know.

Something isn't working here.

I'm awake. I was ready for bed at 11:30, but I think I'm afraid I'll miss something if I turn off the computer and go to sleep. I'm not sure what exactly.

I couldn't be a doctor. I might save somebody's life and give myself a heart attack in the process. My CVS repository works remotely. I saw the email where the professor's colleague told me my solution had worked and my heart leapt into my ribs. It still feels all adrenaline-y. Haha, wooooooot!

Just a quick one, I need sleep.

I skated home today after working late and I was taking off my skates by the supermarket bus stop and this truck driver drove up stopped at the light and smiled and nodded and waved at me and I smiled and waved back and then when the light changed he tooted his horn and nodded again and I nodded and he drove away. It made me feel very good. :)

Also, Insha'Allah, I'm going to do this martial arts class at Dar us Salaam, if they have room and I can afford it and I get in in time and the class at GWU. I should be busy in the Fall, hopefully.

3 consecutive days skated (Tues, Wed, Thur).
2 consecutive days yoga, full Bikram (Tues, Wed) and 1 day (today) just skating stretches afterwards.

Bedtime. Salaams.