Awareness Awareness Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah

Rule #4: Find some awareness.

Today was day 2 and week 2 of my acting class. We did a scene! We had lines! These were the lines: The boy was eating goldfish when the goldfish king appeared. He said "You put a stop to that or I'll pierce you with my spear!" "Oh goldfish king, oh goldfish king, you come in to my life at the single perfect moment." I blew my lines once, but it's an awareness problem. I am about as self aware as a gnat. Maybe less. It's the same as when last night after making a tyrannical post about not f-ing up one's constructs, I didn't realize I had the shadow and died in the raid and wiped us. Granted, I've been wiped less than maybe anyone else but our pally tank, but I should have been watching my dbm bars.

I'm going to make this quick so I can get some in-game stuff done tonight. I decided to take the 10:10 bus home, so I'm in the library on my awesome laptop getting ready to work on some bgs or some leatherworking. I wanted to do an instance, but I don't know if I'll have time tonight.

I want to get back into heroics because they use different skills than raiding. You also have to be more aware of what you're doing unless it's like mech or sp or something. I need to go for bot and arc. I should probably pug them too. Pugs require even more self-awareness.

Pessimistic note: Of course, it won't really matter. No one is ever going to take me seriously anyway. *Sigh*

Optimistic note: I miss movement. I miss directed movement. I miss Taekwondo. I miss stretching and occupying space and all that. I think I'm going to do Wushu in the Fall if not TKD. Wushu would probably be easier and I think I might be able to deal with the people. We'll see how the rest of the acting class goes. I think I'm taking the rest of June off and chilling, doing whatever I want to and nothing I don't. Then in July and August, I think I will make a major effort to do 2 months straight of Bikram Yoga on my own, no crutches, and to get my flexibility up to speed as well as my strength and stamina. Insha'Allah.

Oh, also, people who won't acknowledge you don't have to be acknowledged themselves. It works.

Salaams.